I've missed writing. I've missed it so much. It's the one way I feel like I can escape into whatever is going on in my life and sort through all of my thoughts and emotions. Unfortunately, having a newborn baby with colic and a 7 year old with his own schedule is not conducive to writing. My husband and I have pretty much said that we have kind of lost the last 3 months of our lives. My life has changed, and I feel like my writing should change as well. So, while I am going to continue to write about sports, I'm also going to write about what I'm going through as a wife and mother. After all, this is who I am now! Let me back track a bit...
On August 23, 2012 the Lord delivered our precious baby girl, Averie Blayke, to us at 9:48pm. She was 6 lbs, 7 oz. and absolutely perfect. We were so very excited to add a baby sister to our family! Braedon was a natural big brother when he first held her and she has loved him so much, ever since. She also fell in love with her daddy right away too. I finally had the family I had been dreaming of for so long. I had a wonderful husband, son and newborn daughter. Life was so sweet.
Then around a month old, the "normal crying" got worse, and before we knew it, if she wasn't sleeping, she was crying. All day and all night. There was no relief. No where to run, nowhere to hide. I had a few offers from people to watch her so we could take a break but I felt like I would never talk to them again if I left her with them for more than 30 minutes! I just felt so bad and such a failure as a mom because I couldn't make her feel better. We did everything we were told, we did everything we read. Tried it all, nothing helped. Until about a month ago, we were looking for a new SUV at a car dealership and we realized, she didn't cry! We were there for 6 hours buying this car and she was happy as a clam, and then just fell asleep when she was tired! It was something we've never seen before. We were afraid to talk about it in fear that it might come back. So after that day, little by little, she has gotten better. We are working on naps and sleeping through the night right now, so lots of prayers are being said!
I'm really wanting to get back into the things that were such a big part of my life pre-baby so this is my first attempt! I've also started to go to the gym when Miss Averie wants to be happy for the nursery girls but that is also a work in progress. I forgot how hard it is being a new mom! Everyday tasks seem so overwhelming now! But I'm going to try to write as much as I can. Uh oh, nap time is over!
